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I came here intending to write a journal about how I'm a pretty lousy person. To tell you that I keep breaking the promises I keep making to you, and that I've asked again and again for time and your patience and abused it again and again. I came to say that you've been absolutely lovely for having faith in me all this while--and that I'm not asking for your time or faith or patience any more.

I like to think that writing is in my bones, that I'm a writer and that I will never be able to not write. But I came to tell you that I haven't written a word in months and months, so there's clearly nothing of the sort in my bones. I meant to let you know that I've more or less given up on myself and that it's past time for you patient, wonderful people to as well.

But I turned on my laptop and looked at the screen and thought, "Depression or laziness or whatever it is can go kick itself in the face because like hell am I taking this sitting down."

And I opened up a document and wrote the first scene I have written in long, empty months.

Then I wrote some more, and that second scene became what I think is going to be the first page of Epic. I meant what I said--I won't ask you one more time to put up with me as I resume work on Epic (again), and I won't make any more promises. But I'm going to do this, because I've realized that I have to do this or risk falling back into the spiraling pit of unhappiness and purposelessness that I've been in for longer than I want to believe.

I know this sounds overdramatic as heck, but--thank you, really. For being interested and supportive and hopeful when I was lacking interest and hope in myself. Maybe this is the day I start making things happen for real.

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EPIC: in which they are short a bed

EPIC: in which it all begins

Also: I'm going to college! University of Southern California YEAH. Official fight song? "Fight On."
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: The Cinematic Orchestra - Arrival of the Birds
  • Reading: Epic
  • Watching: Nikita, which by the way is awesome
  • Playing: the keep-my-head-above-water game
  • Eating: peppermints

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~austheke
call me Aus!
Artist | Literature
United States
I have limbs made of ink and paper. I am dark hair, dark eyes, notsodark skin. My name means "gardens", or "sanctuary". I will never stop writing. I would be (almost) happy to drown in coffee. I love being warm. I am a chronic procrastinator. I am not indie. I am not mainstream. I am the strange space in between opposites. I love sunshine and the color green and the sound rain makes on car windows. I read read read, and to me every word written is a victory against death.

I'm Aus. Who are you?

Current residence: STRANGER DANGER! STRANGER DANGER! (california)
deviantWEAR sizing preference: adult small
Favourite genre of music: rock, electronica, dnb, dubstep, instrumental, chillout--but most of all indie.
Favourite photographer: lucid-state.deviantart.com
Shell of choice: turtle!
Wallpaper of choice: anything of cathedrals or churches or cities in sunlight. <3
Personal quote: "no worries."






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:iconyoursweetpea:
~yoursweetpea Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Just stopping in to say hello - I hope you have a wonderful day. :huggles:

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Reading is being part of the world, writing is creating it, and drawing is making it real. ♥
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:iconeldrant:
Aus <3 How have you been?
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:iconfuzzle-wit:
~Fuzzle-wit Mar 21, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Hello, my dear!

I hope the new year has been treating you well so far, and that your weeks have been filled with sunny days, lovely evenings, and lots of free time to write! :heart:

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"A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I, or are the others, crazy?" ~ Albert Einstein
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:iconatomhawk:
Thanks for the :+fav:s!

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:iconchashirskiy:
*Chashirskiy Jan 22, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for the :+favlove:
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Mood: Love ~alyanna13 Jan 21, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love your stories and you are such a great, amazing, talented, et cetera writer...im not even half as good as you...

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Live, Laugh, Love, Draw, and eat Bacon.
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~austheke Feb 29, 2012   Writer
Sorry this is such a late reply, but don't be so down on yourself--practice! Read the right books, write in every spare moment, observe people and things around you, and you will get better, promise.

Thank you so much! <3

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"in the dying light you tasted like smoke and syrup and loss." - fairgrounds
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:iconwin-e:
you are an amazing amazing AMAZING writer!
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~austheke Jan 11, 2012   Writer
Goodness! Thanks so much, that's really lovely to hear.

I'm, er, also a really slow writer, but I'm trying to get back into the swing of things. A bit at a time! With any luck, I'll have some new writing posted soon. Thank you! :meow:

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:iconwin-e:
yaaaay, my peasure :D
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